today today today today. urgh today. could have gone alot better.

today was a downer. in more ways than one. I wish I could have fled from my life. our 494 class usually gets along very well, we see each other more than I see my friends and family so in a way they are my friends and family. and boy, we ended up yelling at each other today. trapped in a room, trying to talk out our show we ended up fighting and blaming each other, and arguing and pointing fingers. so stressful, I didnt know how to tone it down or make it stop so I just sat, stressed out in the middle of it all. yikes.

I am in no way a fan of cats but this ones got style.

Today Evan is six big huge years old. part of me wishes he would stop growing up because I am missing it and I hate that. Sigh sigh sigh, so here is to Evan, on his big day.

fuckyeahbabyanimals:

Rescued baby manatee

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this photo was a complete screw up, which I love.

this morning my room was filled with red light. the sun pouring through my windows, through my curtains, left a red glow, so warm and safe I did not want to leave.

My body has felt tired and used lately. I push it hard, dont pay attention to the signs it needs a break, dont feed it well, dont workout, dont give it time away from chemicals and work. I am vowing I will start to be different. I will, here and now cut out the crap, the cold pizza for breakfast and the non existent dinners. I will eat fresh things, only. make more of an effort, to truly start to take care of myself, body and mind. In my life, there will be no more shit. And boy am I trying.

to kelsey, on her day of birth. I love you greatly.

to pumpkins and my favorite holiday growing up. to laughter and joy within a kitchen. a night well spent.